Physically it’s exhausting but emotionally it really wears you down. I wanted to give up and just die. I said things that I shouldn’t of said. Things like ‘it would have been better if I was never born in this world’…obviously you can’t choose whether to be born or not. God has chosen me from the beginning and has a purpose for my life. Also I said to God ‘Why do I need to deal with all this. What wrong have I done to deserve this.’ I was just very frustrated and upset with everything. Life just ain’t fair sometimes.

BUT….

God is so merciful. His grace is sufficient! God showed his miraculous power once again. It was just yesterday that phlegm had stopped bugging me. My grandma and mum had prayed for me earnestly the night before. I believe God answered their prayers. Thank you God! I’ve had a couple of experiences like this. You go through the darkness of life and feel like there’s no way out of it but then God shines a light on your life. He delivers at the right time.

Life is indeed tough. Whatever circumstances you’re in you just gotta keep walking by faith. It might seem like the end of the world sometimes but you gotta keep fighting on. I will continue to keep walking by faith.

The last 2 weeks or so has been a tough one for me. I had just finished building a website for Sydney Esperanza Strings. This was my first website project in about 4-5 months. I previously had revamped a website I did for Northside Enterprise Inc some 4 years ago. That’s all good news!

The not so good news is that my chest had played up again. I had a lot of phlegm in my chest/lungs. This ain’t new to me but it’s frustrating. Its like ‘not this again!’ You just lose all your energy and time. Sometimes it would drag on all day. However by God’s grace my chest is now clear. God has delivered once again. Thank you Lord!

Well it’s just 5 days to Christmas! It’s a very special time of year. A time to celebrate the birth of Jesus our eternal King. A time to share the love and hope of Jesus. Yes! Jesus is the answer. I hope this Christmas will bring peace, joy and comfort to everyone here and around the world.

Time to sign off now. I’ll be back for more bloggin.’ So stay tuned….

Customer: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready to install now. What do I do first?

Service: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?

Service: What programs are running?

Customer: Let me see. I have Pasthurt.exe, Lowesteem.exe, Grudge.exe and Resentment.com running right now.

Service: No problem. Love will automatically erase Pasthurt.exe from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually overwrite Lowesteem.exe whit a module of its own, called Highesteem.exe. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge.exe and Resentment.com. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Service: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke Forgiveness.exe. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge.exe and Resentment.com have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I’m done. Love has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Service: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your Heart. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?

Service: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops!.. I have an error message already. What should I do?

Service: What does the message say?

Customer: It says:”Error 412. Program not run on internal components.” What does that mean?

Service: Don’t worry, that’s a common problem. It means that the Love program is set up to run on external Hearts but has not yet been running on your Heart. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means that you have to love your own machine before it can love others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Service: Can you find the directory called Self-acceptance?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Service: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

Service: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the directory: Forgiveself.doc, Selfesteem.txt, Realizeworth.txt and Goodness.doc. The system will overwrite conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Selfcriticize.exe from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it! Wow! My Heart is filling up with really neat files. Smile.mpg is playing on my monitor right now, and it shows that Warmth.com, Peace.exe and Contentment.com are copying themselves all over my Heart!

Service: Then Love is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go

Customer: Yes?

Service: Love is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you are meeting. They will in turn share it with other people, and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

Service: You’re very welcome.

I dare you to call me cute!

My respiratory function has become weaker so it’s difficult to cough up phlegm. There have been days when I just wanted to give up. I’ve had thoughts of whether I was going to die. A person with muscular dystrophy probably would ponder that question…especially when you hear of someone who has passed away and you think ‘would I be next to go?’

However that’s not what’s in my mind. God has plans and purposes for me. I believe I still have a job to do while I’m on planet earth. A person doesn’t die that easily…it’s not for us to determine that. It’s all in God’s hands. During the time of my distress, God has always been faithful to me. God has shown his awesome love and grace to me. Thank you Lord! I thank you with all my heart.

I hope that I can share the love that God has for me to many people. I believe that’s the reason why I’m still alive today…to spread the good news. A-men!

Well I hope 2007 will be a better year than 2006. I hope that my health will be the best as possible. Importantly I hope to have a deeper walk with God. He is the answer to everything. I can do absolutely nothing without God!

Psalm 23:4 is a bible passage that gives me strength. ‘Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.‘ What an incredible bible passage that is! Thank you Lord!

Also, I had the privilege of meeting The Hon. Dr Sharman Stone, MP Minister for Workforce Participation, who was one of the key speakers. Dr Sharman Stone didn’t see me speak cos she had to leave early but I did have the chance to say hello and pose for a photo.

The main focus of the seminar was to basically send out a message that people with a disability can work and make a contribution to the Australian economy. With the support of the government and disability employment services such as SEDS, I don’t see why people with disabilities can’t work.
By working together I believe we can make a equal and fair society out there. People with a disability deserve a fair go!

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A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel plans. So, the husband left Minnesota and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down the following day. The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without realizing his error, sent the email.

Meanwhile, somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband’s funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and fainted. The widow’s son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:

To: My loving wife

Subject: I’ve arrived Date: April 6, 2006

I know you’re surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send emails to your loved ones. I’ve just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then. Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was.

P.S. sure is freaking hot down here!!!!!

The urinals of the German Football Federation Media Center of the World Cup International Broadcasting Centre in Berlin have a football theme, ahead of the 2006 FIFA World Cup. (AFP/DDP/Marcus Brandt)