Simon sayz

It hasn’t been a good start to 2008. This ain’t the way I wanted to start off the new year but I couldn’t prevent it. Phlegm had built up in my chest and throat area. Last month was a bit of a struggle cos of phlegm. I was even unwell on Christmas Day. Boy was I upset! Now for all this happening again it’s been very frustrating. It’s been both physically and emotionally tough to deal with. My chest and ribs are in bit of pain cos of all the coughing and chest physio. Also my throat has been sore and my whole body aching.

Physically it’s exhausting but emotionally it really wears you down. I wanted to give up and just die. I said things that I shouldn’t of said. Things like ‘it would have been better if I was never born in this world’…obviously you can’t choose whether to be born or not. God has chosen me from the beginning and has a purpose for my life. Also I said to God ‘Why do I need to deal with all this. What wrong have I done to deserve this.’ I was just very frustrated and upset with everything. Life just ain’t fair sometimes.

BUT….

God is so merciful. His grace is sufficient! God showed his miraculous power once again. It was just yesterday that phlegm had stopped bugging me. My grandma and mum had prayed for me earnestly the night before. I believe God answered their prayers. Thank you God! I’ve had a couple of experiences like this. You go through the darkness of life and feel like there’s no way out of it but then God shines a light on your life. He delivers at the right time.

Life is indeed tough. Whatever circumstances you’re in you just gotta keep walking by faith. It might seem like the end of the world sometimes but you gotta keep fighting on. I will continue to keep walking by faith.